A poem for one of my lovers

I remember that promise you made.
I remember our little talks, our laughters
and tight hugs and kisses.
I do remember wanting you to be happy 
even if this meant you're not with me. 
Yes, I know
I tried to bring you to me 
but I just lead you to her arms.
Such a shame 
I've never had a chance to be actually her
and I cried because of this. 
I'll never be her or girls like her
who have boys like you.

Right now my words are so dazed as I am.
I've got lost in you 
but I need someone to find myself in
and you left a big empty hole inside of me
but not as big as the love you made me feel.